With a title like this, you know it's gonna be a fun post!                                             Who doesn't love noodles? I dont know! Noodles, noodles -- can't get enough noodles! mirror!                                           That's right! I used the microwave as a lovely mirror! noodles!                                 To begin playing with your food: twist                                             My aunt Sharon and I like to sautee: Ginger, tomatoes, onions, mushrooms, fresh spinach, herbs and spices in a skillet... emergency stash!                                             We keep such staples in the refrigerator in case of dinner emergencies! :) This one featured chick peas!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fun!                                             Assemble ingredients for instant dinner fun and nutrition! ... check out this amateur photography! :) ALL manual focusing take practice but I refuse to use auto focus... yummy                                             And if anyone can please explain to me this new BLASTED "text enhance" ... is it a virus on my computer or is everyone else seeing "text enhance" randomly while reading blog and websites...is it a good chrome thing!!?...then that'd be great! perdy                                             Do yourself a favor: go play with your food! :) hehe...Happy Friday!

Yesterday, I realized that I allow what people say really impact my behavior. It's sad, really. But what's hopeful is that I am beginning to recognize my unhealthy tendencies and not let me behavior, like eating my feelings or shaming myself, carry me away with others' comments as a lousy excuse.                                             So here's the deal...for the last two week, or more, I've allowed this lady at my office to affect, more or less, the way I behave. This lady does not know me well and I have tried to be kind to her despite her aloof behavior and eye-rolling my way. Really, I am not sure that I ever did anything to both her besides leaving crumbs in the hall or water drips in the breakroom floor. Three weeks ago, today, she stopped me in the hall with what appeared this cheeky grin to say "You've put on a lot of weight." As she examined my frame, up and down, up and down again, her nods were confirming..."Oh YEAH, you have put on a lot of weight." Smiling, trying to appear cheerful and unaffected I relied "Thanks!" and skipped off to grab my bag and head for my after-work appointment. telephoning Despite my hopeful success of not giving this woman any inclination that her comments had affected me - positively-negatively-or-WHATSOEVER- for that matter --I could care less about her at that point: I was CRUSHED. How is this hurting little girl in my soul going to cope with the women's comment? february 17, 2012 Despite-of (NOT in spite-of) people's comments, this lady want to live a new way! So the workouts and meals after such a comment were closely monitored...that is, I had to make EXTRA sure that a healthy perspective was the voice that BEAT OUT the nasty haunting voice of others' comments. The truth it, I HAVE gained weight but no matter what other's think, I have to live life and be grateful or else I'll have nothing to offer others down the road. And THAT's what I really want...to offer something special to someone else and not remain so focused on ME and what others think of ME. Who CARES how much I weigh!!!??! I can only hope that one day, I really will not care how much I weigh if I know what's, truly, good for my soul. this girl tired                                             Yes, there is a time and place for making sure I feed my body the proper nutrition for it's needs, not over indulging or depriving my cells of the fuel they require, but I am talking about releasing myself from the deadly grips of feeling that my weight is = to my worth. wednesday                                             More importantly, if there's something I have said to contradict what I mean, then remember: I certainly do not "know it all." Don't listen to me, listen to Him! You're beautiful. monday :) Happy Wednesday to you all! Love, Jasper

There might be nothing more fun than to spend an afternoon with Grandma and her little movable kitchen island. The sweet cutting-board-pastry-platform would come in handy in ay home or kitchen, mind you!                                               Now just because I am calling this apple pie "Grandma's," does NOT mean that it has not or cannot be adapted...every pie reserves its maker the right to "spice" it up a little...and for this pie, the story's no different! cinnamon                                             Begin with: 6 medium-sized Granny smith apples 1 c. sugar 1/4 t. salt 1 t. Jamaican Island Spice seasoning (cinnamon, clove, allspice and nutmeg combo) instructions: peel and slice apples...toss around in sugar + spices + salt...set aside. for the crust: 2 1/2 c. all-purpose flour 1 t. salt 10 T. butter cut into small piece 4 T. + more ice-cold water instructions: cut butter pieces into flour with pastry cutter. slowly add T. by T. of ice cold water to mixture, working dough together with hands until just combined. Be careful to not overwork the dough...roll dough out onto floured surface after dividing dough ball into two separate pieces. get in my belly!                                             instructions continued: after gently placing bottom crust into pie pan (or pottery pie dish) empty apple mixture into pie crust and then finish the job with the other pie crust...decorate or sculpt pie crust to desired appearance. Bake for 1 hour at 375 degree oven. Cool before serving....or...   delicious                                             ...you could also serve the pie as our family does...   need icecream?                                             ...and THAT's warm/hot with vanilla ice cream!   a la mode                                             It's a funny thing, really...this pie was for my cousin Sara's birthday celebration...after which I attended this youth leaders meeting with a sort-of cute guy leading a I looked like such a slop...oh well! perdy                                             At LEAST the pie was perdy today :D  

**Warning: The following post includes content not suitable for younger audiences. Viewer discretion advised: For those of you interested in how my marathon training is going: It's going "ok." My Garmin 405 is not running and I would really like to figure out how to work it! It beeped once when I plugged it in and, since that time, no lights have come on at all :( Nor is there any indication that the battery is actually charging. If you've got any suggestions, please let me know! Right now I am sort-of overwhelmed with the availability of training schedule PDFs...when I think of it too much, I get freaked out over social medias impact on the world...yikesabee! Here is the actual training schedule that I have been following for the past five days since I began training on Tuesday :D ! If you've got suggestions for how to mix it up (this training schedule is actually pretty mix-it-up-like :) ) For the "Unhealthy Half-Marathon" Story...well here you have it: March 2010 There I am, fourth from the left, and "beaming" with enthusiasm. Despite the big smile, I was very unhappy. I was at one of my highest weights, mostly looking forward to my night binges as the only "relief," "enjoyment" and "pleasure" in life, and utterly lost. My days consisted of facebook, phone calls to new "friends" in Reno, trying to hold a job at Starbucks and feeling completely disgusted with myself and others. Feeling caught in a disgusting a viscous cycle is no fun if you've been there. March/April 2010 During January-April 2010, especially, I mainly focused my attention on trying to find a boyfriend (#fail) and trying to look attractive (##fail) ... Around early January, I came up with the brilliant notion that I should "{eat as little as possible and, on occasion, eat as much as I please then rid myself of the calories through self-induced vomiting}" sadrunning2 By May 2010, I had lost nearly 50-60 pounds by starving myself throughout most of the days, painting them, sporadically, with large binges using pastries and Frappacinos from work. sadjasper I "thought" I was so happy but behind closed doors, I was vomiting my feelings and completely "ok" with my behavior. The bulimia was "working" for me because physical appearance were all that "mattered" to me. Sadly, my feelings of rejection and hopeless self-centered-ness, couple with loneliness and confusion kept me trapped. sadrunning This was the day before I ran my first (and only) half marathon. Looking at this pictures, now, I remember thinking "HOW FAT" I [was] when I saw the photo later that week. All along, I let "friends" and acquaintances ask why I "[had] lost so much weight" in a four month time frame...only to quickly change the subject or allow them to believe such a weight loss attributed to my half-marathon training. Really, I was starving my body of the nutrients it required and doing NO physical activity. It does make me sad to think that I actually "thought" I was happy or that weight was the only part of me that "mattered." On the morning of the San Francisco Half Marathon, I'd not run more than 7 miles in my entire life (and that 7-miler had taken place in 1999!!) but I had to "pretend" like I had been training. After 2:05:00, I finished the race and felt "perfectly fine." Looking back, I realize that it was all part of my delusional thinking in 2010. It did not matter how much or how little I ran, I was being unfair and cruel to my body and soul. train! It's not a very pretty story! But there you have it :( I really do hope that one day I can enjoy exercise (like I do, very much, today) as a healthy way of getting in touch with the blessing of moving my body! And that's what April 7th 2012 can and will be a celebration of!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) Have a happy Saturday!

There’s nothing, quite, like getting all excited about completing my taxes under the impression the refund will be grand! -- And then finding out that I actually owe enough to keep me in the black by $39. Yipee skippee! {sarcasm} Perhaps these bars (not the recipe, mind you, but the experience) was a bit of a let down, too! I was so excited, thinking, ah yeah, foodgawker’s gunna like this one but when I began to try and style the finished product I came up short. Very short. Oh well, it’s just not my week! They . keep. rejecting. me. but. that's. ok. a . little . #fail. here. or. there. AIN'T. gunna. stop. this. lady :D I was using Ashley’s awesome tips only to realize that part of my problem was that my tripod was resting on a wicker deck chair which does not make for anything less than a trampoline-like effect on the foundations for the tripod’s feet. The photos were turning out so blurry that I wonder if me jumping on a mini-trampoline on the back deck would have helped the photos to expose more clearly ;) But enough with my sarcasm! The week’s almost over and what I’ve lacked in blogging, others' like Chelsey, Teri, Kathleen, Katie, Ashley, etc., etc., etc... have certainly made up for it. I have just loved reading this week and will soon release my much anticipated {I promise, that’s the last of the sarcasm} “eleven Q&A” about crunchylittlebites! For now, though, .... don't forget now, this is my entry for the Cooking Creations contest courtesy of Appliances Online and Clean Eating Chelsey ...ladie's and gentlemen, I give you: Zebra Honey Cranberry Chocolate Cereal Bar recipe: for the crust: 8 c. Cheerios cereal 1 c. light brown sugar 4 t. cinnamon 2 t. salt 1 1/2 unsalted sweet cream butter, melted for the filling: 1 c. semi-sweet chocolate morsels 1 c. dried cranberries 2/3 c. honey 1 t. salt 1/2 c. organic shortening, melted eww for the chocolate-coconut drizzle: 1/2 c. semi-sweet chocolate morsels (melted using double boiler) 2 T. coconut butter pinch of salt yikes Instructions: For the crust: In standard food processor combine 2 c. dried cereal + 1/4 c. light brown sugar + 1 t. cinnamon + 1/4 t. salt until well blended. Repeat this process for the remaining similar quantities of respective ingredients. After completing this process, add melted butter to dry ingredients, mix with spoon and then press into 9 in. x 13 in. x 0.5 in. baking pan. Set crust aside yummy For the filling: In food processor chop semi-sweet morsels to a fine, crumb-size and then add dried cranberries to food processor. Process chocolate and cranberries together until well blended (looks like a crumbly cocoa mixture). Add honey to food processor and blend chocolate, dried cranberries and honey until honey is evenly distributed throughout mixture. Pour melted shortening into mixture and process until smooth. Then add the salt and blend mixture once more. Spoon mixture onto crust and gently distribute filling over and around entire crust in baking pan. Set crust and filling to chill in refrigerator. photo-o? (like typo) For the drizzle: After melting semi-sweet chocolate morsels over a double boiler, whisk in coconut butter and pinch of salt. Drizzle the mixture over, already, cooled and square or diamond (or whatever shape, really!) bars. uh oh Attempt to style bars or just eat them with tea and loving family and friends! It was getting dark outside because I was at work all day...wondering if I would/wouldn't get home in time for enough natural light with which try and shoot! zebra cereal dessert bars hubbah zebras Again, I really really really really wanna win the $100 Amazon giftcard courtesy of Chelsey & Appliances Online :D so don't forget!... This is my entry for the Cooking Creations contest courtesy of Appliances Online and Clean Eating Chelsey purdy zebra cereal dessert bars Happy Friday yous guys :) <3 jasper naomi P.S. Does anyone remember those "cereal and milk bars?" Those creeped me out so much, hehe! [source]

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